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Just breathe….

on December 10, 2011

It has already begun. Yes, the stripping down has started and it’s not comfortable. At. All.
I was met by the devil himself yesterday morning as I was getting the kids and myself ready for the day. I was invited to a prayer group for Max’s school. I was so excited to spend time in communion with the Lord, praying over the needs of my children and their school. Praying for teachers and staff. Praying to make a difference, because prayer always does. Well…the devil met me right where he knew I would be most vulnerable and easily attacked. He met me in my mothering skills. I became a crazy woman as I ushered sweet Max out of the house. The level at which I rose my voice was beyond acceptable. I am sure the look on my face rivaled that of the creepiest monster imagined. I was not in control. Oh what a horrible place to be…out of control and at the hands of the enemy. I repented, asked Max’s and the Lord’s forgiveness and took Caroline to school. As I drove to my mom’s group I wept for the Mom I had been…before I had kids. The mom who was always in control. The mom who was fun. The mom who was firm but gentle. Not the mom who is completely nuts!

Well, I was driving with my girlfriend, the one who had invited me to the prayer group. She assured me that none of us are the moms we thought we would be. She is an encourager and I felt her encouragement.

We settled into our prayer time. Reciting scripture relating to the coming of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. We had time for silent, reflective prayer. I asked forgiveness. I felt renewed. I felt loved. I felt wrapped in the arms of the Lord. I felt like, although I was anything but a good mom to the kids that morning, it was all going to be ok. It’s ok because I am able to ask forgiveness from God. He makes it as though my sins never happened.

I realized, or rather the Lord placed it on my heart that I am constantly under spiritual attack. The attacks are most vicious and cunning when my intentions are to honor and worship the Lord. We must stand firm against these attacks. We must be dressed in the Armor of God. We must start each day fully protected against satan’s lies and deception. He will try to derail you every second of everyday. He can be successful if we don’t clothe ourselves in Christ. If we are living in the flesh; of the world; for ourselves, we give him a foothold. DON’T DO IT! Rebuke him each day…all day.

I came to a startling realization about a year ago. I was sitting in bible study and one of my classmates came in late. She said that the devil had met her in her closet that morning. She said that he does this often, usually on days she goes to bible study and on Sundays. Ahhh…days she is deliberately communing with the Lord….bringing Him glory. Lightbulb moment! Yes, it dawned on me…he meets me there too. So I went home and rebuked the devil from my closet. I stood in there inviting Jesus and banishing the devil. My closet is a happy place now, not a place of self-deprecation and loathing…the way it had been.

That’s what happened yesterday as I was preparing myself and the children for our days. The devil knew that I was headed to worship; praise; seek counsel from the Lord. He got jealous and he got under my skin…and I let him! He met me in my mothering. He evoked in me a fury of anger. That is not of God. So, now I know. I need to be mindful. I need to be aware of the emotions that begin to erupt when I am preparing to be with my God. I need to catch them before they catch, and capture, me.

SO, why has it “already” started. Well…the next year of Living With More is essentially an offering of my entire self to the Lord. A sacrificial offering…a burnt offering…a tithe of sorts. I am preparing my heart that I may seek God fully and not be influenced by the father of lies. I must be adequately armed as any warrior entering war. I need to be completely covered in the Lord. I need to be like David…IN THE LORD. I must trust in HIM fully and be willing to battle the enemy at any moment…battle evil with righteousness.

“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition wo all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.” Ephesians 6:10-18


3 responses to “Just breathe….

  1. Lynn A. says:

    Thank you, Samantha, for sharing your experience and inspiring me to put on the armor of God each day! Your children are blessed to have a wonderful Mommy who has such a loving, spirit-filled heart. God bless you, sister!

  2. Stacy says:

    Thank you for getting me ready. I have this battle almost every Sunday.

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